Practice Interview = Trust & Purpose
So after a fairly recent skype session with a module 2 focus, I was inspired by giving an interview a go, and practising with one of my fellow actor friends. I had some set questions I had drafted around my research subject, I was actually really quite nervous, I think perhaps a small sense of 'fear of failure'. If my interview does not work then maybe my question is too difficult or confusing and I'd be back at square one. This is something I am working on throughout Module 2, learning to trust, myself, my ability and allow things to be malleable. Even as a 'person' in everyday life, I think I need to be able to do this more.
I found it a bit of a struggle to get the right balance with the interview questions; as I needed him to talks bout certain things of course so it was in relation to my research topic, but did not want to be to 'leading' and some questions I thought that were quite obvious to me, made sense in a completely different way to him, I definitely have some feedback to go away with and re-draft the questions a bit, however, it also made me realise that even if the answers are perceived in different ways from different people, this will be interesting. I can use the fact that what I had thought might comer up didn't or not as much as I would have thought and if so why? And why do I think it holds such importance if it is not coming up by others in my industry?
There were already surprising things that came up, I had not thought of, especially linked to previous training at drama school and how the structure of the classes don't hold much relation to 'real-life' as an actor and his belief that drama school enforced a rigid, one-dimensional view of being ana actor after drama school but included nothing else, no family no work/life balance - just if you are an actor you must sacrifice all else!
Something else that came up in this interview that I have been reflecting on as part of my work but also in life during COVID-19, is boundaries. Setting boundaries for yourself is seeming to be of more importance in my life now, I think as creative people, we naturally look for more and find it hard to settle, a habit of the job always being temporary perhaps; but I do find it hard to stop and to say 'no that is enough', how much of the day will I spend 'working' being creative, making things, trying new ventures, writing, working and how much time will I relax and remind myself that relaxing and 'not striving' for something is just as important.
There is a really interesting TED TALK: https://www.ted.com/talks/emily_esfahani_smith_there_s_more_to_life_than_being_happy?language=en
She talks about happiness and meaning in life; what is happiness and it is to live more purposefully - A comment really resonated with me, when she describes how 'people flounder' when they have no purpose. I definitely do, I have needed to fill my days while not working with; Shakespeare workshops, play readings, setting up a children's entertainment channel, writing scripts - all to feel 'purpose'. I think my research topic is within this spectrum 'How to craft a healthy/work-life balance' and is my way to really understand the biggest question around my practise and to TRUST in it.
I found it a bit of a struggle to get the right balance with the interview questions; as I needed him to talks bout certain things of course so it was in relation to my research topic, but did not want to be to 'leading' and some questions I thought that were quite obvious to me, made sense in a completely different way to him, I definitely have some feedback to go away with and re-draft the questions a bit, however, it also made me realise that even if the answers are perceived in different ways from different people, this will be interesting. I can use the fact that what I had thought might comer up didn't or not as much as I would have thought and if so why? And why do I think it holds such importance if it is not coming up by others in my industry?
There were already surprising things that came up, I had not thought of, especially linked to previous training at drama school and how the structure of the classes don't hold much relation to 'real-life' as an actor and his belief that drama school enforced a rigid, one-dimensional view of being ana actor after drama school but included nothing else, no family no work/life balance - just if you are an actor you must sacrifice all else!
Something else that came up in this interview that I have been reflecting on as part of my work but also in life during COVID-19, is boundaries. Setting boundaries for yourself is seeming to be of more importance in my life now, I think as creative people, we naturally look for more and find it hard to settle, a habit of the job always being temporary perhaps; but I do find it hard to stop and to say 'no that is enough', how much of the day will I spend 'working' being creative, making things, trying new ventures, writing, working and how much time will I relax and remind myself that relaxing and 'not striving' for something is just as important.
There is a really interesting TED TALK: https://www.ted.com/talks/emily_esfahani_smith_there_s_more_to_life_than_being_happy?language=en
She talks about happiness and meaning in life; what is happiness and it is to live more purposefully - A comment really resonated with me, when she describes how 'people flounder' when they have no purpose. I definitely do, I have needed to fill my days while not working with; Shakespeare workshops, play readings, setting up a children's entertainment channel, writing scripts - all to feel 'purpose'. I think my research topic is within this spectrum 'How to craft a healthy/work-life balance' and is my way to really understand the biggest question around my practise and to TRUST in it.
I feel like trying to create a healthy work/life balance is the hardest thing about this career! I’m reflecting in a similar way, Covid-19 has forced us all to slow down and see if our busy/on the go always way of life was necessary and sustainable or not.
ReplyDelete